lols...

i am so sleepy but i cant sleep cos i frank a can of nescafe(not sure spelling). lols. i am so freakin dumb. i dont noe y i drank it.

emo stuffs
i remember when i was primary 5. one of my friends passed away. he came from china. we were friends. not casual ones, but we talk quite a bit. i was sad. and now i have forgotten his name. i dont noe... i dislike this feeling. i feel fake. i feel that i am so freakin fake. sigh...i remember only few events which involved him. can i even call myself his friend? or is this the meaning of being a friend? i do not know. my brother said that after he started NS, he very seldom talks to his old friends. does this happens to all of us? the very fact that we are friends is just becos we are "forced" to? i have tried to start a conversation with one of my pri sch friend. i fail miserably. am i the problem? i think im anti social. im sure i am. i do not noe what will happen after graduating from secondary sch. i dislike life. i dislike death. wad should i do? live i suppose. but for how long. i do not know.

i am emo. i am negative. i suck.